JOY OF LIFE.... NOT

Hey. I'm bored and sleepy. Should i blogging or going to sleep? Anyway, hope y'all have a good day.

Anyway, i'm quite tired with my practical training 'drama'. I've told the entire staff in Pustaka Miri that i will finish my training on 19th April 2011 and my supervisor lecturer would come a day earlier than that or on that date but turn out the lecturer can't come and she told me that she didn't know when i will do presentation in Kuching cause no one inform her. I'm kinda lost in this situation. I don't want to talk about this thing, for now. It makes me feel tired. Lol..

Move aside..

Still talking about my studies, i kinda questioned my idea to further my study. First, we don't have stable money income. Second, my mom don't want me to go far from Sarawak. She was almost crying yesterday when we do confrontation (sound serious, huh? Lol..) about it. She don't want to be left alone. I mean, my big sister is living with his boyfriend (the last time i saw her was 2 weeks ago). My brother and I will further our study, with God's willing. My other sister want to quit her job and find other job in other place. My mom was like "Who will be with me every night? I'm scare left alone." I don't know what to say but i did say that she should ask my big sister to give birth and then my mom will take care of the baby, then she will have company. Lol.. I don't have any idea. If i done with my study and getting a job, my salary won't support or increase our family money standard. I want a change. I'm sick of being poor and not enough of money. I'm sick of that. Being poor is not cool. People always think you want a sympathy. Urgh, suck your own d*ck selfish-rich-b*tchy-people.

Talking about study, turn out my brother missed the chance to apply to go for Diploma study in UiTM. I mean, seriously? I told him that the opportunity would close on the end of March and he was like : "No, in April." Then he told me that to apply to UiTM, there's no need to buy the pin number. I brought him along to BSN to buy for my own pin number and i clearly said that i'm buying pin number but he thought i was buying the form. Seriously?! This happened because you guys didn't want to hear whatever i'm saying. My opinion is not matter. I'm not saying i'm the brain in this family but hello, i'm a UiTM student. I know how to apply to UiTM correctly! Why won't you hear me? Urgh. Anyway, i think he should taking this thing really serious. This is not a gamble. I don't want to be the only one who want to change.

Next..

I love American Idol Season 10 until i heard the comment from the judges are always the same, every freaking week! All i heard was "That's amazing and beautiful." Up to the point when Steven Tyler saying "I don't find anything wrong with this performance." Seriously? I'm not even a very experience singer and i don't frequently (hardly) singing in front of audience, but i do know what's bad and what's not. Jennifer Lopez and Steven Tyler are too soft. They left the voters to wondering who's actually good and who should they votes. Before this with Simon Cowell as the judge, if he said that the contestant is weak, next day, that person will be in the bottom three. He set the benchmark. Beside, the judges are using the 'save' too soon. Casey was good but i don't think he's consistent. Pia was talented and sure she only can sing ballad but we all know, she killed every ballad. I'm sure Pia Toscano will be a star someday, just like Jennifer Hudson and Chris Daughtry.

p/s : Can you believe it? My blog only viewed by 2 views for today! I think i can go back to the time when i think no one care what i'm blogging and i blog everything i want to blog. Siaplah sapa yg jahat dgn aku, confirm masuk dlm blog ni pasni. :P

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