Rainbow Me

Hey y’all! Vass happening? (ala-ala Zayn Malik)


Yes, it’s been awhile I have not blogging. Did you miss me? You should. Anyway, let’s be personal on this entry. Since I’m outed myself to my friends this year, the treatment towards me is different, in a good way. I love this new chapter of my life. Sure, I can’t expect people to react the same as the people who already knew who I am, when they found out later. After all, if this ‘thing’ is accepted universally, there’s no reason for people like us to hide ourselves in the closet, right? There are some close friends of mine that accept my orientation but they said, it would be better if I change it. Yeah, I know that but I can’t change it. Unless, one day, when my hearts is open to the opposite sex.

I don’t really like to brag this thing since it is a taboo subject in Malaysia but hell yeah, I am happy to be one. If I am hanging out with my straight male friends, they know what I like. They know I like guy. One of my straight friend even said, I have a weird taste on the guy I like. Well, I don’t really judge a person based on their physical looks. They way some guy acts sometimes can catch my heart. Please be noted, I don’t have a taste for a straight guy. Women, you are safe. Haha, though I can’t say the same thing for straight acting guy.

There was this one time when my gay friend have a phone conversation with me and he asked me everything. He surprised that I am not like any other gay. He surprised I have never go to IKEA, and shocked when I told him that I have been to Kuala Lumpur less than five times. He said, if I am Malay girl, my ‘hantaran’ will be expensive due to my reserve state. I don’t want to be the typical gay if I am one. Beside I am not trying to distant myself from being typical gay, this is me, why try? I don’t have shampoo, I don’t shopping for label.

Here’s a conversation with my straight friends:
A: What colors are you?
Me: Gold.
B: No. You should be rainbow.
Me: [smiling]

Gay doesn’t have to be all about the lust and sex. Gay is a happy thing and love. If spreading love is wrong, something is wrong with you. Peace.

p/s: Did I tell you guys that I am in love? No? Yes, I am in love with someone that takes my breath away. Ehem.

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