25 Years Fucking Old!

Hey guys! How are you? Thank you for still reading my ever old and racy blog. Really appreciate it since I am myself didn't go around and read other blogs as much as before. I'm not sure blog is a thing of the past but it is certainly a place for me to let out some of the stuffs that won't as effective and as much as Twitter can. 

Anyway, I'm 25 years old today. Yes! I finally need to see myself as an adult. Before long, I will be 30 years old. That's fuck up. Lol..

Honestly, I didn't expect myself to live to see this day. That was back in August when I was hit with a news that I have this life threatening disease. I was just started working in a new company with high hope that it will be my life career and boom, I'm told that 50% people with my disease don't get to see the future. Meaning die. My life turn upside down. Mostly down and somewhere in between cause I don't know how to react to it. Then, I thought I'm going to die and not even live to my closest birthday. And look where I am now, I guess I was thinking too much. 

No worries though. I'm in the hands of great team from the local hospital who would do anything just to make sure I'm fine. I am in medication as of now. Probably for the rest of my life. Very ironic how much I didn't believe in medicine before and now my life is depending on it. 

To be honest, on the bad day, suicidal thought present. I was like, what if i consumed all the medicines all at once, will I die or I will make a fool of myself? Lol.. Thank God I am strong enough to not do it. It wasn't easy. 

Since then, I believe in "just do it" kind of thing. It's amazing how near death or dying can do ones life. You see life in a different perspectives. You got to experience it to understand it. I won't wish it on anyone cause it wasn't all that amazing but it did give you a kick in living. 

So, here is to a fantastic, full of joy and love, stress free and great career as a 25 years old and the for the rest of the years that I have. Cheers to that! 

p/s; Don't ask me what I have. I'll tell you when I'm ready, which could be never. 

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Jakuone said…
Hey, stay strong and happy belated birthday! :)
October 12, 2015 at 12:59 AM
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