Boyfriend Material

Boyfriend? I'm not a boyfriend material, not even for someone who is half loser of me. I'm semi attractive, fat for boys my aged, unemployed. I have thousand of student loans, I don't have car and for fuck sakes, I have an auto driving license. I cursed a lot, certainly not religious enough. I don't cook soul food. Not even funny enough for someone with half of sense of humor. I'm too tall to be a bottom. I'm sick. I don't know what love is exactlty. I know my place. Until I'm upped my ranked and a better human being, I'm not going to jump into a relationship soon. Maybe ever. All that I can offer is my love and my time, and we all know what shit that can pay; nothing. 

p/s: Just a random thought. I love myself but it is okay to admit the negative side of your life. The road to recovery is the bravery to admit that you're not perfectly perfect and willingness to change that. 

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