Hoe Phase

if i could erase a phase in my life, i would definitely delete, mute and unfollow my hoe phase. those years were wild. gurl, i am disgusted.

they say have a hoe phase, it build character. maybe. but after personally went through that, no. i would love to build my character without damaging my self worth.

i tried everything back then. almost everything but enough to make me disgusted of myself and the way things were.

i want to blame my "first" love on that but i was the one who decides and have control over it and clearly, i am the one to blame. i was saving myself for him and then he ended up ghosting me, it was a painful time. that was the first time i cried because of heartbreak. after that, the hoe phase roll up but it was over before i met my true first love.

i don't believe you can find love in that culture. if you do have, good for you but this is my blog, i'm talking about me. none of the person i met in that phase, was serious about anything except for hook up. that's all they want and you're just a hole. once you know the toxicity of that place is, how much it can destroy your self worth, get out.

hoe phase is only good if you do with knowledge and safe sex. but admit it, most of those people in that phase, they prefer it to be raw. don't you ever thought that it won't happen to you cause it only took one time for everything to change. know your status and have knowledge about safe sex.

so yeah, I would like that part of my life deleted. i don't know how much it taught me about things except regrets.