Stronger, defo.

Its fucking 3am in the morning + blogging in the dark + listening to Halo by Beyonce + shirtless with boxer on! What's better than that? LOL.

The 2 weeks holiday is just ended by end of last Friday and through the entire weeks, i got to do something that i would never do if i was in my dear hometown. I learnt and kinda grow during this holiday. As much as i think i hate it but deep inside, i like it. I learnt to be independent and not to be afraid of loneliness. I got to think deeply about myself as i'm rehabbing myself from anyone else. If i were in Miri, i know i'm not going to be very socializing during the Raya and look what i've found here? I have my greatest Raya ever. I met new people and now i know i'm capable of doing something i think i would never do.

I even do a concert in my room! LOL!

Maybe some of you might don't get and don't understand of what i'm saying as it is my life and, beside God, i'm the only one who can witness the spectacles. I'm not going to regret this moment.

BTW, i just got a news. A bad news. You know that my parent will coming down to here (in Kuching) by 27th Of Sept, right? And during that times i might be set to fly to Peninsular Malaysia already. Bad news. I can't meet them during the holiday (my family told me to not going back to Miri cause they will be coming down during the holiday but when they get the real date, it turn out to be after the holiday and it was two or three days after the holiday start), and now i can't welcoming them to my place. One word, fuck!

Of course they will be at least a week here in Kuching but i don't want a week or more. I want my father to be healthy during the first session only, so we could have our normal life back (all the happiness) and no more drama. Did i mention to you guys before? My mom took a month holiday without payment to take care of my dad cause he can barely walk and doing daily routines. As much i loved God, but this is kinda too much to handle. LOL. Still love You, God!

Above all of that, i knew i would grow stronger each day. Just like the song below. Stronger than yesterday.



Taken from BritneySpearsVevo.

p/s : Time to put game face on to get through the entire 4 weeks before the final exam. Secretly, i think i would love to have AD for the third time (third time a charm) but since i'm doing OKAY so far, i shouldn't dream big this semester. BTW, i cut my hair already. Its a hot mess and not the way i wanted it but i'm rocking it anyhow. I look 4 times younger actually, after that. LOL. Seriously, need to sleep right now!

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