Letter For Jacky

Actually, it is not a letter actually (just want it to be sounded classic and romantic, like Letters For Juliet), it is an email. Well, you know, the world is no longer care about sending a letter to anybody. Talking about letter, i remember back when I used to get love letters from girls in my school. I was hot with the girl. Too bad, I'm not interested. 

Anyway, back to the topic. The email. I received an email from someone that I used to know. Here is the email (my life in an open book or blog, in this case):


Tak jelas? Pandai-pandai figure it out.

I know he will read this entry, so here is my explanation. 

I was actually having a 'break up' by the time I'm so called having "the changes in your attitude towards me." I admit that I was having an affair (but not a relationship) when we were together and I met him. After I met him, he kinda disappear from my radar. So, I decided not to having any affair until I meet that someone in person and the decision to go further in the relationship will be decided after. After that, I told you that we should meet first, then we go on from there. I clearly said that, so that's why I'm "changing." I thought you understood that.

And for you to tell me that I don't love you before, is a bull. I love you before. It was pure feeling. Most important, I have never blame you. What was I am saying to you before about you don't listen when I talk, is true. I thought you just do it only via text but when we met, you did it too. I talk, and before I could finish, you start with your story. Man, I need to talk too. 

That is one of the reason why I can't move forward with us. Another reason was that, I am quite a judgmental. The day that we met, you should have dress yourself because I did. I know, don't judge the book by its cover, but there is nothing wrong for you to be a bit stylish. First impression is important dear. I even told myself, that I can't see myself with you in the next few years. That's telling me enough about us.

In that note, I dedicate this song for you. Hope you understand it. 

Big Girls Don't Cry by Fergie.

p/s: Thank you for the gift though. I don't mind actually if we contact each other after all of that, I don't do "estranged relationship post breakup." 

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