Footprints in 2010

Another year come to an end in my life and everyone else who make it too. Back in 1990, i was only mere 3 months old and flash forward to 2010, i'm a blogger who for the first time live as a youth, not a teenager anymore. I accomplished a lot of things in 2010 and a lot of loses too cause i'm a Libra. Life is freaking balance if you are Libra. Let's roll into the memory lane.

The First Time

I did a lot things for the first time. This were some of the things i would never ever imagined to be done in this year. In sports wise, i play bowling and wait for it, net ball, for the first time. My entire life as a kid dreaming to play bowling. My siblings even try to make a fake bowling lane and fake pin with a fake ball. Thank God some years later, that fake turn into original moment. Although i didn't share that moment with my siblings but there is always 2011. About the net ball, no. I didn't join the competition. It would be the first time ever in the world a male compete in net ball competition and i would have a year long contract with some world renown net ball team and some controversy. No, that didn't happened. That would have been so dramatic. In Z-List life, no one even give a fuck of what you're doing. That's how i like it. My friends (noticed that i didn't mentioned their sex? cause almost all of my closest friends are female) are practicing for their netball match and i help them around, try to give them motivation. It was fun and easier than basketball. My bad though, i didn't even attend (except for one time but i don't think that's count) their match.

Another first time moment. I stepped my foot on Peninsula Malaysia for the first time! And the greatest thing about it was that i go to go there twice! Once for the very disappointing but i-don't-give-a-damn Programming & Multimedia Competition in Terengganu and the second one was for Special Topic's trip to Johor and Singapore. I thought i would never make it to Peninsula, at least in 2010. Then, i have my first act as blood donor. The experience was speechless. I can't forget the moment when i was asked to hold my own blood bag. The blood was so warm and it felt like i'm holding my baby. I almost cry cause it was so amazing to see God amazing creation. Definitely not my last. With this opportunity, i want to say thank you to friends who making 2010 an unforgettable moment.

The Lost

Not much lost this year except the fact that i lost someone that was and will always be important and some crucial interest. So, the John are walking into 2010 with 6 members and step out from 2010 with 5 members. Where's in the heaven the one go? In heaven, resting in peace. Yeah, my father lost to his cancer battle on 21st October 2010 (one day before Roseline - my sis - celebrate her birthday) after fighting with it for almost 3 years (he was first confirmed to have it when i finished my first semester in UiTM). This year alone, a lot of time which me and him could spend together but i refused and i regret it indefinitely. Like when he asked me to go with him to his village for Gawai but i say no cause i don't like the attention i got there (i was treated like a Prince before this) and i prefer my mom's long house. Turn out, after he came back from there, he was back with cancer (which he was told by doctor in early 2010 that he was free from). So, there was talk that some 'evil' person put something in his drink while he was celebrating Gawai. True or false, i don't know but my dad's long house is known to that kinda poisoning. Here is the thing, if i were there with him, i could changed everything but i believed God knows what He is planned to the John. I accept the fact that i lost my dad but i just couldn't believe i'm fatherless. There was never a day i didn't think about him (that's normal). Weeks before he gone, i dreamed about it. And i always know (deja vu) that someone will told me about death news while i'm still in class. Couldn't believe it would actually happened (although i always believe in deja vu). I dream about him about two weeks ago. I was arrived in this uber-modern and super white airport (you know how dream could be so out of the world) and he was there waiting for me. He told me that the world we both stand are very different, everything is huge. It was so real that i woke myself up. But, we will move on to 2011 eventually.

Move towards the end of 2010, i lost my interest to study (lost it once when i studied SPM before). I'm very sure that i would have one of the worst failure in UiTM history but that is not listed in Z-list life. I got an okay result eventually. Thanks to the carry marks, as usual.

Epilogue of 2010

2010 was a whole lot of gained and loss. Looking forward to 2011. Hopefully, less loss and more gained. Lets bow and give it standing ovation to the 2010 for the last time and put on a party for 2011.

p/s : My favorite new year song ever (since it is the only New Year song i know)! Dedicate to y'all. Thanks for visiting my blog in 2010 and please do so (more often, joking) in 2011!

pp/s : note the above image? its my official album cover for 2010. Yeah, Kackson Kohnian is not dead. (if you read my blog since forever, you know what i'm talking about)