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I woke up early today just because I have an appointment with my dentist, Dr Azza. Aside from that, I got a text from one of my friends. I've mentioned his name before in this blog but for his privacy, I'll keep his name out of this post. So what is the content of the text? 

"Morning. Sorry disturbing you in this very early morning. Anyway, I'm no good at confession. The truth is I'm not only have a crush on you but I do really you and I'm falling in love with you. I know it's kinda lame the way I'm confessing, as I'm no good at confess and I like to be straight forward rather than flowery words. I'm not forcing you to accept it but as long as I tell the truth, I feel relief. "

Yeah, a heavy message (I've changed a bit the way the message was written for the sake of the privacy) early in the morning. I don't know what is wrong with these people but since the day I have arrived in Shah Alam (less than a week), this the third person who asked for a relationship with me. Damn.

Of course, it took me some time to process that message. In between that, I got my teeth fixed and apparently, that was my last appointment. The doctor also compliment on how I always smiling. Well, that's the least I can do. Anyway, I also managed to accidentally lied to my junior on the whereabouts of Akademi Pengajian Bahasa (APB). Urgh, feel bad for them. Well, that's what you get when you asked a dyslexic. Haha.. Then I hopped into a bus, full with passengers, where I managed to work as the one who gave the tickets to the coming in passenger. 

Then, on the afternoon, I go to Seksyen 7 to have a lunch date with my BFFs! Aww.. I miss them so much. That's the first for this semester. And another first, the four of us in a car, in Shah Alam. Teringat zaman kat Kota Samarahan, dengan kereta sewa. Haha.. After that, we head to DATC for the Amanat Dekan & Perhimpunan FSKM, or as I called it Sepetang Bersama Dekan since we spent the entire evening with her. 

The identity card of four besties! Caution, we didn't look like that at all, in real life. Haha.. 

I'm giving a real smile! Or laugh. Haha.. Ni time tunggu si Mieh00n pergi bersolat.

The SMFs angkat sumpah and all. Harap harap la dorang tak meninggi diri lepas ni. Don't take the position as an excuse for you think that you're above all. Be among the student.

Teman mendengar amanat Dekan, Ray Soya and Stan Blaster. 

Dekan tengah bagi amanat kat depan.

And I met my ex there. I saw fakeness in everything that he was doing. The way he talk and all. Come on. He was the one yang avoiding to have a conversation before and suddenly he want to talk to me right now? Please, fake. Even Barbie bow down to that. 

Back to the first paragraph, I finally replied to the text. Of course, I stay true to myself and so, 

"Thank you for the confession. I appreciate it. Honestly, I don't have any feelings towards you, other than just a friend. I'm sorry. Beside, I'm not ready to have a relationship right now."

Yeah, that's my replied. He did replied after that but I keep that to myself. Seriously, I'm no in a condition to have a serious relationship. Beside, I don't want to accept anyone just because they want me. My feelings is all that is matter, right now. If I'm not feeling it, then I'm not. There is no excuse for me to just try. Done playing. I'm raising the bar, remember? 

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