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Okay, I have not done with explaining yesterday matters. 

Among other reasons is I am a family man. I put my family first. I celebrate Gawai Dayak and my mom have always mentioned to me that she wanted to go back home for the holiday. Gawai Dayak is on the first week of June while my graduation is in May, so there is definitely conflicts (not time wise but money and leave wise). I love my siblings very much and I cannot wait to get back to them every time I was away from them, so I understand if my mom is missing her family too. It's been awhile, the last time was 2011. 

Told my mom yesterday about my decision to not go to the graduation in order for her to come back home, I can feel the happiness in her. Though, she told me not to blame her in the future. Of course, I am not that kind of person (if I am, sorry), besides I didn't think about it at all. She repeatedly asks me if I am serious about the decision. So I told her about the symbolism of the scroll alone is enough for me. True. 

So yeah, I won't be there come this May for the graduation. I got my own reasons for such and if it is too complicated to be understood, I'm sorry if my explanations didn't resonate with your understanding. I'm sure we all will meet again someday; here on the Earth or the afterlife, I am cool with both.  

p/s: C'est la vie.

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