The Ugly Truth
Do you know where i get most of my inspiration to write on my blog? Bathroom. That where i get to think a lot and all by myself. The idea was showering all over my mind and after finished my bath, i have to choose one topic. And today, i'm thinking about what i do on last semester holiday.
I watched The Ellen DeGeneres Show a lot. Why? Because i was so naive to think that people would actually pick me as the host for the 4th semester dinner. Here the bits, before the end of 3rd semester, the dinner's project manager (but he was turned down ever then to become project manager's assistant) told my future co-host that i was selected as the dinner host.
I was so speechless and at the same time excited because my dream since i was 12years old to become a host of an event is about to come true. Although, i do doubt the decision, because i knew they think i'm not the one and they knew i was this little boy who don't speak much and not capable of taking that kind of responsibility. I'm not blaming them for thinking such cause that's what they see in me, i can't blame them to be blind of me.
And then, during the holiday, i am preparing for that event because that would be my first time as a host.
FLASHBACK : During my secondary year, where there is audition for prefects to host the assembly, i was there and i did try for it and unfortunately, i was not chosen. I was okay at first before i was get very devastated with it, but not for a long time. After all, i'm not 5S1 student.
So, i get very excited and try to be the best i can as a host. I chose Ellen DeGeneres as my idol because she's so natural and funny. She stumbled (gagap) during her speech which is i do too. So, its okay to stumbled, as long as you have the idea.
And then, the drama came. After learning that our 4th semester dinner got some major problems, i knew that my dream would crash and burn, but i'm ready for such consequences starting from the day i heard that i will be the host cause i knew what people think of me. The new project manager did ask me whether i'm still want to be the host. Because she is the manager, i can't be a diva and pushing her that i should be the host because the decision is at her. So, my answer was "Do you believe in me? I don't mind if you choose other cause it is your project, of course you want the best for it." Didn't exactly execute like that but almost.
After few drama was on, they eventually picked someone else. I was sad actually but life must move on. Maybe it's not my time or Rahimah time yet. When will it be? God knows better.
Talking about dream being crush and burn, i was really hope i could sing a tune during that dinner. Guess it's not my time, again. Come on, i'm a loser. Who would proud to sing with a loser? Whatever, i think i should focused more to sing on bigger audience. LOLs..
TRIVIA : There is twice in my life i'm singing in front of audiences, which is once on year 2005 (Flying Without Wings by Westlife) and once on year 2008 (I Will Always Love You by Whitney Houston). The best was my last performance in 2008 where i sing in front of my mom's colleague and their family. All of them was paying attention to my performance and the best moment is that i have my mom with me on stage. Priceless.
Whatsoever, the point of this entry is to accept everything that may come along the way. Life is not always the way you want it to be because you are living with people, this world does not really belong to you. Some time, we need to sacrifice a bit while at the same time, life has to move on. The most important, don't be so rebellious and revengeful with people who blocking your dream, instead, focus more on the future of yourself. Try not to taking thing very hard. Be patience with the life and then you know, life will treat you better, slowly. Enjoy the moment.
I watched The Ellen DeGeneres Show a lot. Why? Because i was so naive to think that people would actually pick me as the host for the 4th semester dinner. Here the bits, before the end of 3rd semester, the dinner's project manager (but he was turned down ever then to become project manager's assistant) told my future co-host that i was selected as the dinner host.
I was so speechless and at the same time excited because my dream since i was 12years old to become a host of an event is about to come true. Although, i do doubt the decision, because i knew they think i'm not the one and they knew i was this little boy who don't speak much and not capable of taking that kind of responsibility. I'm not blaming them for thinking such cause that's what they see in me, i can't blame them to be blind of me.
And then, during the holiday, i am preparing for that event because that would be my first time as a host.
FLASHBACK : During my secondary year, where there is audition for prefects to host the assembly, i was there and i did try for it and unfortunately, i was not chosen. I was okay at first before i was get very devastated with it, but not for a long time. After all, i'm not 5S1 student.
So, i get very excited and try to be the best i can as a host. I chose Ellen DeGeneres as my idol because she's so natural and funny. She stumbled (gagap) during her speech which is i do too. So, its okay to stumbled, as long as you have the idea.
And then, the drama came. After learning that our 4th semester dinner got some major problems, i knew that my dream would crash and burn, but i'm ready for such consequences starting from the day i heard that i will be the host cause i knew what people think of me. The new project manager did ask me whether i'm still want to be the host. Because she is the manager, i can't be a diva and pushing her that i should be the host because the decision is at her. So, my answer was "Do you believe in me? I don't mind if you choose other cause it is your project, of course you want the best for it." Didn't exactly execute like that but almost.
After few drama was on, they eventually picked someone else. I was sad actually but life must move on. Maybe it's not my time or Rahimah time yet. When will it be? God knows better.
Talking about dream being crush and burn, i was really hope i could sing a tune during that dinner. Guess it's not my time, again. Come on, i'm a loser. Who would proud to sing with a loser? Whatever, i think i should focused more to sing on bigger audience. LOLs..
TRIVIA : There is twice in my life i'm singing in front of audiences, which is once on year 2005 (Flying Without Wings by Westlife) and once on year 2008 (I Will Always Love You by Whitney Houston). The best was my last performance in 2008 where i sing in front of my mom's colleague and their family. All of them was paying attention to my performance and the best moment is that i have my mom with me on stage. Priceless.
Whatsoever, the point of this entry is to accept everything that may come along the way. Life is not always the way you want it to be because you are living with people, this world does not really belong to you. Some time, we need to sacrifice a bit while at the same time, life has to move on. The most important, don't be so rebellious and revengeful with people who blocking your dream, instead, focus more on the future of yourself. Try not to taking thing very hard. Be patience with the life and then you know, life will treat you better, slowly. Enjoy the moment.
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