Secret

Finally, my BFFs get to know the devil side of me. I think its about time, after all the help and time we spend together, i think they deserved to know what i've been doing all this time. I meant, i'm not usual to this, this is my second time girls. Beside, i don't want you girl to die without knowing what i'm really is. I've experienced that and that was really bad feeling. Its like i'm lying (or i am lying) to our unity.

Don't worry, though. Its not permanent. But the last time i'm in this kind of relationship, it was stay for about 4 years! Not kidding. But that was back when i'm still innocent (really?).

But i just want you (to my BFF or others who know 'real' me) to know, never ever said this thing :

"No wonder his dad died, anak dia sial macam babi."

Or anything close to that words. My dad will be so offended by that, mind you that. What i have done in my life, have nothing to do in my dad death. I'm sure God did not punish a person by giving the punishment to other person. He is not stupid to do that. I'm sure He will give it straight to me. To tell you the true, i think i have received my punishment. Come one, look at where i stand right now? Not even close to be a star.

Moving on..

First November of 2010 was not a really good day to me. I spent all day with sleeping. My sickness got the best out of me. You know what is worst than can't walking? My ability to listen to the music is off when i'm sick. My head can't digest any music in that time. The music start to sounds annoying and like a torture to me. That is a disaster!

By the way, two presentations is coming and i'm really the bitch in the group. I know that. But i can't help to be one. I just lost it this semester. Wait till you guys see my result this semester. I might have one of the worst fall in UiTM history ever recorded. At least i left my prints in UiTM. LOL. No, seriously, i'm not working hard this semester. I don't know where to find it or to get it back. I used to be the one that want all the perfectness but now, i'm the source of imperfectness.
Maybe i'm having my mental breakdown. For real, this time around.

Just wait till i come out in newpapers like this girl :

After all, Britney Spears is my muse.

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