If You Seek Jack

Afternoon, y'all. I came across my first blog - ifyouseekamy- just now and thanks to someone who account name : ifyouseekjack, commented on that blog. I didn't know or remember that i post something so decent and heart warming. Thanks for reminding me.

This is the post i'm talking about :

Hero
This entry is dedicated to my dearly and missed dad , John Entinggi , who is the
hero of my life since i’m born to this beauty and ugly world. I was suddenly
thinking of him tonight. Firstly , i was worried about my money which is in
drought situation and my dad was the first person to came out from my brain. He
was the one who responsible in managing our family money - more like an
accountant in our family. I was (almost) cried when i flashed back to time he
was dedicated himself to me last semester. He come from Kuching Hospital to UiTM
just to help me (and my careless-quite-stupid mistakes) to take the letter of
information changing about my bank account (which is carelessly entered by me
wrong number account) to PTPTN office in Shah Alam and then hand it over to Pos Laju
in Kuching. What made this story is touching is my father (at that time) is just
finishing his chemotheraphy session. If any of you know how the condition of the
patients after undergo that session , you feel me. He was from the town go to Kota
Samarahan just to help me. And i admit i was the stupidest person in this world at this
time cause at that time , he was not in my mind. I was only thinking of the money which
will put in my bank account. I was never wanted to know how he feel and did he mind to
do this at his critical time? My mind is loaded with the money and money. Worst of all,
i didn’t the one who wait for him in front of the main entrance beside i was only
give him direction. You can called me stupid for just realize what he has done to me
now which is like 6months+ after the event.
To all the people who read this , don’t do this to anyone. The feeling of regret will
haunt you forever. Don’t misused other people. Appreciate them. Thank them.
p/s : To my dad which is in the Miri Hospital at this time , sorry cause i can’t be there
for you (i’m having my final exam in Kuching). A lots of sorry. Be strong and
please keep holding on cause i want you to feel and see my future success. You are
my inspiration , dad. I LOVE YOU.
18/4/2009 (11.45pm)

OMG. That was so good. LOL. Too bad, sometime what we want, is not destined for us. We have to live with and move on.

Anyway, thanks again to ifyouseekjack.

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