Overthink On Small Matters


This post is written on 18th September 2011.

As I am typing this post, I’m all by myself in the room cum house. I supposed to be in a program organized by FSKM (Fakulti Sains Komputer & Matematik) called Program Pemantapan Siswa & Taklimat Dekan but me and the other non Muslim are given permission to bail out of the program last night since we need to go to the church the next morning.

Though I think I can stay for the entire program because obviously I’m not an active Christian follower. It just that I will be so much uncomfortable during the entire day if I stay, ye la, apa la yang akan dikatakan oleh my non Muslim friends. Mesti dorang cakap, si Jack ni rather overnight dalam surau than go back to hostel. Si Jack ni confirm sudah jauh di terpelanting dari jalan yang lurus. Hmm.. Kalau I stay pulak, awkward pula I sorang sorang yang non muslim time dorang sembahyang subuh nanti. Entahlah, kenapa la I overthink of this matter. I wish I could just decide and never look back. Siap cabut kertas undi lagi, sama ada nak stay or go back. Keputusan nya stay, tapi I still can’t decide. Last last, just as I told you before, I balik hostel.

I balik pun ke hostel, bukan nya I pergi church pun. At least la I buat kerja yang berfaedah semasa menunggu geng balik dari program tu, seperti cuci baju dan buat exercise Linear Algebra yang perlu dihantar next Tuesday (20th September). Entahlah, susah jadi Jackson John ni. Fikir terlampau sangat. Tu sebabnya ada rambut putih kot.

Kesian pulak dengan si Joe, I tinggalkan sorang sorang. Walaupun dia cakap, he’s fine with it, nada dia bukan nada yang melegakan perasaan I. Dorang Rahimah, Tita & Ummi lagi, tak dapat nak spend time with them.

Sini lah program tu dianjurkan, UiTM Seksyen 17.

Anyway, what past is past (eh, macam kenal ja statement ni, huhu). Move on, Jack.  

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