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I've been vocal about my sexuality over the years, especially in my Twitter or my own daily life. My friends know who I am. I am not ashamed of that. I'm proud to be one of them. I like to be one of them. 

But as the years goes by, I definitely growing up as it. As far as I know (not that far), the Bible have never mentioned about it clearly but still, as a believer of God and to Christian, I do find what am I doing right now is kinda not right. Not that I'm saying loving another person with the same gender is wrong, it just the loyalty of the love that is in question. If you already found the right one, then cool. But if you are the type that jump from one person to another in one day, I don't appreciate that. I don't find that attractive and good.

I definitely don't want to be that gay at his 30s who still have sex with tons of people. I don't want to be as low as that. I need to stop. Some measurements that I did in order for me to stay sober on this stuffs is to avoid social networking that allow such stuffs to happen. For example, I already delete my Tagged account (did that mid year of 2013) and I uninstall Grindr application (did that last week). For now, I'm focusing on my career and if love decides to come, then I will welcome it with open arm. Till then, no more of this bullshit sex craze. I don't want to be desperate for attention, love or sex. It should come naturally. There is no point for me to jealous at things that God forbid. 

One another note, just recently Pope Francis voiced his opinion on gay and he is very welcoming of it as he said that it is not his job to judge these gay and that what were church are doing right now is not open arm on gay is driving the gay away from the church. That is true. I don't feel like I belong whenever I'm in the church and after Pope said that, I do feel I want to love it again. 

p/s: Stay classy, not slutty. 

Comments

arc_zac said…
Just be yourself and focus on your career. Stay on who you are, because certain community nowadays harden to shut on their precious mouth other than too busy taking care of other people business rather their own business. :-)
September 26, 2013 at 10:43 PM
Jackson John Entinggi said…
Yeah, that's our community and its our job whether to listen to that or not. :)
September 27, 2013 at 8:35 AM
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