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I don't know if I ever told anyone about this (I doubt that) but over the last semester holiday, I got to emotionally attached to this person, Liam (not a real name, just a reference to Miley's ex fiance). Met Liam on this social networking site, Liam was the one that start it all. He message me since I left my phone number in the site. At first, I wasn't expecting anything since I wasn't the one that start the conversation and that I don't want to get my hope high. 

Then we talked on the phone almost every nights for hours.We talked about almost everything. Love, relationship, family, friends and sex. We talked about meeting, and Liam did asked for few times to meet me but I refused because I wasn't ready and you know, people like us tend to crave for sex than a real relationship, so I was holding back a little. I don't want it to skyrocketed too high, only to fall down fast and hard. 

That was before Aidilfitri. During Aidilfitri, I didn't want to contact Liam since Liam is busy with the celebration and working. But after few days, we're still not talking to each other and at that times, as a broke guy, I don't have any phone credit. Not until a week later and text Liam, asked Liam about it but the message was not delivered. I'm still cool with it. I have this idea that he might lose his phone, so that's why. 

For quite sometime until this one day, I saw him online at the social networking that connect us before, and I asked for an explanation. Liam did lose his phone. But the way that Liam in the conversation, I can feel the coldness and that's why I won't bother to ask for more. Liam didn't even try to have my number or contact me ever since. I guess it is over.

Today, I saw Liam just recently online on Whatsapp. So I politely greet Liam, so did Liam. It is quite a shock to me since if Liam lose his phone, how could he still have the same number? You won't believe how stupid will people think how stupid is you. Thank God I'm not. Yeah, I do have a room for Liam in my heart because I thought it was genuine but with all the lies, I don't think I can rest in peace (kinda). I don't know what is wrong with us but on the corner of my mind, if it didn't register, maybe God have something better for me. 

For all the lovers out there, don't play with people feelings. It is totally not cool. If you don't like them, tell them. Don't leave them hanging. If you have been hurt before, you should know how it feels and you don't have the right to let others feel the same.

p/s: Wrecking Ball by Miley is really fitting my situation.

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