The Story Of A Boy Thinking Of Someone
Written on 4th February 2012
As most of my neighborhood community
is on the Dreamland or some naughty boy jacking off in front of his desktop
(darn it, do I have to put sex jokes on everything? Tacky a bit) at 2 in the
morning, Jackson John is sitting on his mattress that have no bed with his red
hot Acer laptop on his lap, pouring his thoughts on a software called Microsoft
Word.
Yes, he has been thinking a lot. The
thinking makes him up from sleeping schedule and grabs his laptop and powers it
on immediately. This is one of the ways that comfort him when he does a lot of
thinking. What does he is thinking? Or should it be rephrase as who does he is
thinking?
He has been thinking a lot about
someone who he is falling in love with. He is falling hard for that particular
person. Even that person knows how much he love that person, or he thought so.
He has not contact the person he have heart for, for almost five days now. He
do not do it purposely or because he do not love that person anymore, but
because he simply do not want to annoy that person much. He has done enough
damaged couple months back.
Of course, it is hard for him to not
to hear anything from someone he like and it did leave a tiny scar on his
heart. He care so much about that person. That person have been on his mind
every freaking days that end with three letters which are D, A and Y. He wants
to know if that person is healthy enough to live more and spread that
infectious smile and giggle, with everyone he comes across. He wants to know that
person whereabouts, what that person is doing and done. He wants to know
everything about that person because he doesn’t want that person is a stranger
to him.
He admits they are growing apart from
each other compare to the first two months of meeting. He admits he did not
behave well along the way. He admits that he is not perfect. He admits, he
loves that person more than he ever loves someone. Maybe he is still green in
love, but he is for sure knows that he love that person so much that he will go
thousand miles, just for that particular person.
Just before he decided to write his
feeling on his laptop, he is actually trying to come out with a text message
that he will send to that person this morning, when he is wake up, to break the
streak of not texting that person. But come to think that if that person will
ignore it and just don’t have time for him, or will give back with a hurting
text message reply such as “Please!” or “Huh!”, he don’t have the courage to
proceed more and instead, delete all the words on the message inbox that he has
type on earlier.
That certainly doesn’t mean he is
giving up on that person; he is just wants that person to be happy, even if it will
cause him to break into pieces. There is no way that he would give up on that
person because the love for that person is so strong, even what others think of
him doesn’t matter. It surprises him when people expect him to just want
something except love from that person. He guessed that people don’t understand
his feeling then. He swears; he never wanted a penny or more from that person.
He swears, he never wanted just a sexual encounter or more from that person
(terms and conditions apply) because he respects that person status and needs.
All he ever wanted is love.
Love is the overrated feeling in the
world but that is exactly what he want and feel for that person, kidding aside.
For now, he has high hope that that particular person is thinking of him, the
same way he is thinking of that person, while continue with his life and keep
getting better.
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